Apparently, I have an inability to be open with people, because now even when I can be my honest and authentic self, I'm super guarded and watchful and careful.
It's like with anyone I'm around, I'm just waiting for for them to turn on me. Waiting for things to get bad.
Which is how my entire life was when pretending to be a man. Guarded, watchful, careful. It's like I can't turn it off now. I never wanted it in the first place, and now it's like a default that I can't stop.
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2023-09-08 15:22:38
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2023-09-08 15:22:38Event JSON
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